No words

The doctor said, we have to do the surgery and we have to do it now.
My life depended on this surgery. 
I would be given another chance at life.
Most recently, so many people weren't as lucky as myself.
Life flashed through my mind.
I am sure they weren't even given time for that to happen.
My pain was unbearable and still lingers.
Their pain lead to peace.
I am on bedrest.
Those innocent victims are on eternal rest.
In moments of life when those rare events take place, we struggle with how to cope. We struggle with how to make sense of it all.
As my life has unfolded, I have gained a little understanding. Yet I am certain that I will never truly understand it fully. What I do know for sure is that I must move on. I must not dwell in how I could have changed things. I must remain resilient and move on because I am so blessed to have been given a chance to do so.

FAILURE

Failure.
Lack of success.
Falling short.


I am guilty of using the word all to often. As I am human, I'm certain that I'm not the only one. In reflection over how we have failed at something, we often look at the decisions we have made.

I went to the right college. I did the right internship. I joined the right organization. I associated with the right people. I married the right man/woman. I lived in the right neighborhood.   

While having made some great decisions, there have been some decisions that have lead to failure. Failure at career. Failure at parenting. Failure at marriage. Failure 

In the moment of feeling like a failure or feeling like you have failed at something, it is hard to see the light. A dark depression looms over all. I know personally there are times that all I hear in my head is the word failure.  

Words have power.

I know words have power so then I must turn and boost myself up with a reflection on my life's successes. The things I've done. The people I've met. The opportunities I've had. 

Accomplishment.
Achievement.
Success.

As hard as it is not to see the turmoil that falling short of your life plans, you must. Focus on the failure can not be the priority.  Focus on the future success is key. If focus remains on the failure, then that is the end of the story. 

I believe even within failure there is success. Sometimes I feel like I've failed my son at something - yet there is success in the fact that I was blessed to have a child. Presently, I feel like I've failed in my career yet I have succeed at so much in the past that I know I'm not a total failure. I know that there is greater success to come.

What makes me so certain that there is greater success to come?

Without failure there is no success. 

Without success there is no failure. 

The two depend on each other.