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Friday, November 18, 2011


A true or actual state of a matter.
A fact or reality.
A verified or indisputable fact.
Actuality or actual existence.


Recently a friend of mine. Yes, a friend of mine and not me...
Recently a friend of mine found out a few pieces of info relating to the guy she has been dating. We've discussed what the different possibilities are to situations that have recently taken place. Neither of us know the truth. The man at the moment physically can't communicate. Lucky him. So she has to wait to find out the truth to ease her mind. In the meantime she is stuck with uncertain information and many scenarios.

Uncertainty is always the hardest! Uncertainty is harder than hearing the truth.

Many people will say that people don't want to hear the truth. The truth is hard to handle. In many instances the truth is presented to us, but we fail to see or hear it. Many of us are living lives full of uncertainties. Is that okay? Don't we all just want to know the truth?

What is the truth?

In my friend's case I say that no matter what truth that this man has to share with her...the truth is that she must stretch her wings a little in the dating arena. In this case, his truth is not necessary. The facts and events themselves speak volumes. While she nor I know the truth of all the information and how it relates to her guy can't be revealed - that's okay. Well, it's okay with me as her friend. Somehow I think that it's not sitting well with her. I do believe she wants to know his truth. That's life though. Sometimes we are okay with our own truth. Her truth, her indisputable fact is that she is waiting to find out her man's truth in order to make up her mind.

How important is the truth?

What I've learned is that the truth is very important regardless of how it makes me or anyone feel. My only problem with some people and the truth is that everyone has their own opinion of the truth instead of what's an indisputable fact.

To my friend, I've made my point about the indisputable fact that she will start dating again. The indisputable fact is that she is my friend and I will forever consider her truth, my truth and the indisputable facts!

Sunday, November 13, 2011


Tired can be defined as weary or bored. For a while now I've felt this way. Forgive me now for I'm not about to be the brightest sunshine in your life.

I'm so freakin' tired!
So freakin' weary!
I'm bored as hell!

I'm so freakin' tired of doing everything
So freakin' weary of trying
I'm bored by living here

I'm so freakin' tired of watching life pass me by
So freakin' weary
I'm bored

I'm just tired
Getting more weary by the day with no friends to live, love, and laugh
I'm so bored

I'm tired of being the only parent
My body is getting weary
I'm bored by constantly working on ways to improve my life

I'm tired, tired, tired
So weary by trying to stay positive
I'm bored

Ain't nothing changing...I'm so tired
I'm praying, but I'm still getting weary
I'm bored

I'm so flippin tired!

How about you? Do you know how I feel?

I have no message in this. My son hasn't given me any bright ways to look at the situation. What the heck am I to do now? I can't muster up a nice present with a bow on it for you this time. I promise next time it will be positive.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

A book, list, letter, journal

A book, list, letter or journal

As adults we use these things to help us get through life. We plan with lists and letters to ourselves. Journals help us keep a daily record of our progress or regress. The books tell us how to do.

Today two things happened. I opened up a letter that I had written 10 years ago and then I read a couple bedtime stories to my son.

The letter I opened was short. It wasn't too positive. I can tell what mood I was in. Anger. Frustration. In the midst of that unnecessary upset mood, I found a way to get to a positive point. There were some expectations I had for myself that I didn't live up to. As humans do, I questioned myself. Why? What was it that kept me from reaching those goals? It is a little upsetting to know that I had greater plans for myself and have yet to achieve all that greatness.

Soon after reading that letter, I read two popular children books to my son. Both of them carried the message about how we will travel down different paths throughout life. The paths we go on are paved by our decisions. As we go down our individual paths things will get tough, dark, scary lonely, fun, exciting, and ever changing. The moral of both stories was that through it all, one can still succeed and/or be all they ever want to be.

Ironic that I read these children's books on the same day as I read my letter. I'm well aware that life can throw some hard balls and all things can be overcome. It's nothing like a fresh reminder. No matter what book, list, letter or journal you have you must know that all things can still be done. A fresh reminder is always good!

Don't give up. There are places to go. There are things to do.