When someone dies close to you, your thoughts most often are of that person and the memories you have of that person. Well, of course, right?
This Friday, my cousin died. He was more like a grandfather. He was family. Death is never expected. You can never truly be ready for death. This weekend, most of my memories have been of him and thinking about the funeral.
As I thought about what I could share with the world on this Sunday, I thought about death. Not how sad I may be or the memories that I have of my cousin. What struck me is that as I mourn his death, I have totally put the thoughts of my life on hold. Since Friday, I haven't stressed much about the struggles that I face daily in my life. There has been loss of life and loss of my problems.
How is it that I stress on a regular basis about life struggles, yet in this time, in this time of mourning, I have lost sight. I have lost sight of those daily things that I find important. Maybe I should mourn someone everyday so that I forget about my daily struggles. Do you think that would work?
I doubt it.
What I have realized is that if I can mourn and forget about my life's issues, then I can stress less and think about life's issues less. I can do it. I have the capability to know that all the issues of life are very small. They can certainly be forgotten about quickly.
I always tell one of my girlfriends to get a hobby in order to stop stressing. So, what is that I should tell myself? What is it that you use? Tell me about it. I can't possibly think about mourning in order to stop stressing.
I'll just go take a walk and stress about stress later. I'll enjoy my mourning memories and enjoy the moments of a stress free life.